I woke up this morning and I felt completly and utterly drained from work & home life, drowning from paper work & bills that keep coming in, overwhelmed by what needs to be done & what I want done, frustrated by things that I can't change (nor legally talk about without putting more fuel on the fire) our new puppy has me at my whits end, and quite frankly just plain ol defeated by life.
As I sit here writing this my dog has gone and taken a
large s**t on my freshly cleaned white carpet
and then stepped in it and walked around....AWESOME!
I've been trying so hard not to let things beat me down, but I'm not doing a very good job of it. All life's "obstacles" seem to be attacking from various points on the playing field and it had me so overwhelmed I actually broke down yesterday over the carpet cleaner not showing up! The worst part in all of this is that it's in these moments when I feel like the worst mom ever, and that's not right! They have a hard enough time being away from their Dad for the majority of the month, that to add a Bitchy (that's being nice) Mom to the mix is not cool at all.
So after todays episodes of defeat (one after the other), I got to thinking that perhaps I needed to find a way to deal with these things in a more productive way rather than just whine about it and feel sorry for myself! Today I actually was one of those people that annoy me...not gonna lie I had my own pitty party and it really wasn't all that wonderful! So what I need is a plan of action.....
POA ~ I've done these in the past and failed horribly, my guess is that what I was planning just wasn't attainable...lol...or not simple enough? So here's my thought on my POA....simplicity. Keeping it real, and attainable. There are 24 days left till the New Year so for these last days of 2011 I will post daily what I'm Grateful for....big & small!
Today I'm Grateful for my 2 wonderful girls who mean everything to me! They are kind and considerate of others, they LOVE school and their friends and of course their family. They have their moments when I just want to pull my hair out, but who doesn't experience those times? My youngest actually wrote her letter to Santa with a wish list for everyone in our family! My oldest has been making present boxes for all the presents she plans on making for our extended family! They have a sense of humor unique to their personality and come up the funniest ideas. They look out for one another which just makes me happy that they can have a relationship like this already...they are awesome, amazing, talented, kind hearted, and loved!
